Tonight I went to a Christmas Eve service as is the customary tradition. This year, due to spending Christmas with my folks I went to a church I had never gone to for the service. Typically my family attends a Christmas Eve Service at our church which we follow with a trip to Marie Callender’s for pie and a drive through an area full of Christmas lights.
This year’s Christmas is all wrong. We are not in our own home. The place we are staying has no Christmas Tree or even a decoration to show that it is Christmas. We won’t have any gifts in the morning because no one can afford them. The worst bit: my sister is still in Southern California. Christmas is all wrong.
I am so grateful that I get to be here with my Parents, but this Christmas is different than any I have experienced before. This Christmas I realize what adulthood looks like.
This whole past month and a half has been a rough one for me and I say this not because I am trying to complain or garner sympathy, but in an endeavor to be honest with my experiences, this has been a rough season (I’m pretty sure it has been for everyone in my family in our own ways).
Lost. Anxious. Afraid. Confused.
This is where I am, this is where we are.
Tonight I went to a Christmas Eve service at a foreign church, but I am so glad we decided to go. Before we began to sing the Christmas hymns and carols they showed this video. By the time it finished I was crying.
It is cliche to say that this is what Christmas is all about, but it truly is.
I have gotten so frustrated with how things have been going, been consistently having anxiety, getting distracted with my own issues, but I was stopped…. God came down in the form of a baby.
Joy to the World, the Lord is Come!
How great is my joy! I cannot explain it, but I just felt this warm peace fall down over my shoulders pulling up this weight that I had been carrying unnecessarily. God is bigger than my problems and issues. Life will continue in spite of my struggles. I have been so focused on myself that I have forgotten who this is all about. How great is our Joy? The Lord is come.
He is here with me and he is with you.
Know this: this eight scale musical truth is the greatest news. We have hope because the Almighty has given us His son to die for my sins, to free me from that which binds me and inhibits me.
Joy to the World!