You learn a lot about what you need when you have nothing. I have mentioned before how I have been living on nothing, or what seems like nothing for all of 2014 and the last bit of 2013. You see, I gave my all, or at least what I thought was my all, to take a leap of faith. I quit my job and lived off of fumes waiting anxiously for my FAFSA check that wouldn’t come, at least not yet. Then in the process of finding a job to live off of, I was offered a round trip plane ticket to see my parents for Christmas.
“I have to get a job,” I tell myself, “I can’t afford to fly across the country.” I also convinced myself that I needed the isolation to learn why it is the timing was wrong for New York. I refused the tickets, at first, but you know this, what you don’t know is what I was praying. You see after coming to the realization that I was not moving I prayed that I could get paid to do the work I do on campus here at Ignite. I prayed, but I did not hope. I had already caused enough issues with everyone on campus with the moving and not moving, plus why should they pay the performing arts intern?
When I accepted the plane tickets I knew that I would be delaying my opportunity to get a job in town, so I hoped that it would give me time and perhaps my prayer would be answered. I went home without money, then a check went through I thought had already gone through. I went into overdraft, then I was fined, then five days later I got another fine. I tried to call and get it removed, but it did not happen. I returned to school over drafted. I applied to multiple places in town and called them diligently. To be honest I don’t know why I keep trying it this way. When my sister began looking for jobs, my mom always told her to call them, it makes your name stand out. Every job I have done that with has not panned out; however, every job that I have gotten has always been nothing short of miraculous. I’ve skipped interviews, been given a better position before being hired, been called within two days from a state where I was moving, been called within the day I applied and then my current job.
This first week back was difficult. I anxiously applied for jobs and God consistently reminded me not to worry. He also managed to take care of my needs during this time. Laundry and gas money when I needed it and food for every meal. I began to learn about living with just my basic needs met. During this week, I also had this nagging feeling, that I needed to talk to the director of the school, that I needed to ask for a stipend to pay for my necessities. I had learned to live with little, so I planned to do that until my FAFSA money really came, or my tax return, whichever came first.
When I finally mustered up the courage to ask, I was approved immediately. There was some grant money for resident interns that I would be eligible to receive. I was elated, it was more than I had asked for or budgeted. It was also around this time that I got an opportunity to work in the school cafe to pay for my meal plan. I was so blessed. Then I found out last week that my Credit Card payment was overdue, so they fined me.
I was worried, but I knew it would be okay. I had not received any stipend at this point. My needs were still being taken care of and now that I was working in the cafe I ate more than enough every meal. I had even filed my taxes, but my return would not be available until after the 31st of January, today.
Today, I got paid my first stipend. Today I am no longer in overdraft. Praise God.
I have learned something so significant in this time, three things really. One: God works in weird ways to provide you with wonderful opportunities (I am paid to do what I love, administration and the arts). Two: I know how to live well on very little. Three: God always provides, even if it’s not how you think.
Oh and to just add to see how great God is, the verse of the Day on my Bible app is Malachi 3:10, look it up…