I should be sleeping.
But I can’t. I’m anxious.
I haven’t written a blog post in six months. My last post talked about what my adventures would be like “Not in New York”. I had resigned myself to not going for a while. I didn’t know when it would happen.
Well, it’s happening. I am moving in five days.
It all started very much the same as it did a year ago. I felt a stirring. I felt like God was saying it’s time to go to New York City. But this time I told Him no. I could not go through the ordeal of hoping for this and having it not happen. But, as any stirring from God it wouldn’t go away.
I decided to visit New York in order to assuage this feeling. Perhaps if I visited I could get this whole New York thing out of my system and be content where I was, but it didn’t. Because I wanted to be sure, I laid out a fleece for God, I set up something that I wanted Him to show me specifically in order for me to know that it was Him saying go. He answered it, above and beyond.
When I got to New York, it felt good. Like breathing air (smog filled air). I felt like I was right where I was supposed to be. You know that feeling you get when you are away from home for a while, but then you return to visit, well, it felt like that. I didn’t care so much about wanting to do tourist things, so much as I just wanted to walk, or maybe sit in a coffee shop and drink coffee. I visited my old Starbucks twice in one weekend.
I was made for this city. I know it. I pushed onward and a midst the craziness that was my life this semester, I took the steps I needed to take. I have been working hard, saving up, I talked to my bosses, I set up a transfer, I reached out for housing and all of it was responded to well and now I am here. I am about to embark on this next season, into the unknown and I am terrified and yet excited.I cannot wait what life has in store for me, but at the same time I am worried. What will it look like? Will I have enough money? What will people say?
But you know what? All of these things don’;t really matter because one thing is for sure: God has called me to this city, I don’t know what it will look like, but I know He will lead me and take care of me.
Oh and I will do my best to keep you updated on how He does it.